God's Promise

Many of you don't know that I had a father well a grandfather until I lost on him in March of 1993.  I loved him so much that when he died it felt like my heart hurt and it would stop beating.  I had a hard childhood but he was the one person I knew loved me.  People often described him as a joker.  He was so lovable.  So kind.  So much fun.  I loved his laugh. We laughed together a lot.  I don't think I laughed much if I wasn't with him.  He was my everything and when he died I thought about how I would survive.

One night after another fight with my mother about my weight.  I told her that I was depressed and was having a hard time since Grandpa died. She didn't care. She told me to get over it and she didn't have the money to take me to a doctor to get help. "Why did I need medication or to talk to someone about it?"


 I was doing the dishes sobbing uncontrollably.  How could I go on?  How could I make it 3 more years in this home?  How was it going to get any better?  I had taken all the bottles of pills I could find and had decided that I had endured enough pain at 15.  I couldn't see the light.  I had always had friends who took me to church and had wonderful, well to me they did, families and talked of this loving God.  Well I didn't see him and now after losing my Grandpa I couldn't see him. 

So during the dishes I had decided those pills were my answer.  I cried because I knew that this God would loved me or so I was told but I couldn't see him.  I sat there thinking about the things my friends told me.  God carries you when you can't walk on your own.  He is carrying you.  Really?  So as I made up my mind I heard a voice...clear...I will give you everything.  I will give you a man to love.  I will bless you beyond what you could imagine.  So I listened.  I walked upstairs and held those bottles and cried.  I was going to let this God help me.  I wanted so much for him to love me too. 

So why tell you my sad sorry...because I think sometimes we forget that there are many who struggle without knowing that someone loves them.  I love them.  You love them.  God loves them.  I tell this because God has given me more than I ever could have imagined.  I have a wonderful husband.  God blessed me with 5 children.  Hello 3 of them are boys!! I wanted men I got it!! I feel so blessed to have my boys.  I tell you this because as I stand in the frame work of my home...I know I am blessed because of GOD. 

He spoke to me.

He carried me when I couldn't even think about walking.

He loved me through it all.

I am a child of God.  I am not perfect or innocent but I sure do love him!!

Thank you Lord for loving me enough.

Your child

Tuesday

So today we received the paperwork for the construction loan.  So I called Joe to let him know and asked if he knew if they were out at the site doing the footings.  He said they were suppose to be and since he didn't hear anything they were probably working.  So the plan of the day was to go and feed my sister's cows.  Get some pictures of the kids feeding them.  Do Lathan's 1 year pictures and then go to the land to get our daily picture.

If someone is there working I am going to get a picture.

So when we got out there they were hard at work putting in the footings.  What are footings?  Here is what I understand...they are concrete "walls" that hold your home.  If anyone wants to give me another definition I'll take it...I'm new to this all.  So tomorrow brings....Okay I am not sure.  I guess you will have to look for that post tomorrow.

Digging on Monday

So Sunday we went out to the land to have a picnic and we discovered that they had dropped off the digger.  I called Joe, our builder/owner of Harris Homes, and asked if they were going to be digging the basement and he said yes!  Wow...digging my basement!  My house was becoming a reality.  We enjoyed our picnic in the quiet of our orchard.

On Monday morning I was woken by my husband calling to tell me I needed to come to the land asap so we all could decide on the placement of the house on the land.  So I quickly got 5 kids ready to go.  We arrived at the land..me without caffeine and the kids.  Eric, Joe, Brandon and I trying to determine the house placement.  How do you even do that without seeing the house sitting there?  Well I walked into my "kitchen" and that was it.  Yes this is where my house belongs.  This is my view. 

So Eric said "Then this is where you house will be."  I made a decision.  Me!  I got to decide something for me.  I got to pick something that will brighten my day each morning.  I will get to look at the beautiful apple trees, rolling hills, and that amazing red barn.  If they tear that down my husband maybe building a new one.  I am not sure why that barn makes me joyful.  Barns are stinky, stuffy, and full of hay.  Maybe it's because I have wonderful memories of my friend's family barns and jumping into hay piles. Maybe it's because I could hide and dream of better days.  Maybe it's because it's red..lol. Whatever the case...I am starting to see my home.

So back to the functionality of my home.  That was the word of the day as we decided placement.  So let the digging begin.  We also discovered the digging will be done today and the footings will be done tomorrow. 

Later, after Victoria got her braces on, we went back to the land to check the progress and meet with my friend, Jenny, and her kids.  The kids love watching all!! It's cheap entertainment.  Plus it wears them out for naptime..lol.

Breaking Ground

The definition of breaking ground is to do something that has never been done before, to dig up land so you can plant crops or build something.

Okay so now you know what it means so now I can tell you how it went for us today.

I was told this morning that they would be leveling off the land. Skimming off the black dirt and filling in the rest. What? So they dig up the dark dirt and then move or flatten the dirt underneath. They are saving the black or good dirt for a yard once the house is built. So the kids and I plus my girlfriend with her 5 children came out to see them "break ground."

I can tell you standing there watching them I was wondering... How can people see a home where I see nothing? How can those same people see where the windows go..where the doors go? I just see dirt and stakes. I am not sure when I will see it. I guess that is why I am a nurse and not a builder.

Later today they were done with excavating it so we went out to the land to see where they "placed" the house with the stakes. Well it was parallel to the road not the land. Easy fix. Tomorrow will mean fixing the house placement and then digging the basement. Wow!

Our view from the other end of the land.  We have 3.78 acres in an old apple orchard.  Brandon is estimating we have over 200 trees.  I can't wait to see what kind of apple trees we have.

Our Home For Sale

Our Home

Sold June 30th, 2011

My boyz and a lot of dirt

The dump truck!!!

We decided to put a lawn in and had dirt dumped off. The boys were so excited to see the dump truck and play in the dirt.

Miss L

I had the pleasure of meeting Miss L at the hospital prior to her going home. She was just 24 hours old when I took these. How precious!! More pictures to follow this week.